it always takes me so long to start writing in blog posts. i dont think im very good at writing, and im worse at trying to voice my opinions but i feel a little weird posting photos with no writing. i dont want to explain these snaps bc i hate when people just explain whats happening in the shots - images speak for themselves anyways, i think - but i want to type a few words just as a little catch up.
school is pretty much the only thing on my mind these days, and while its such a drag sometimes i try to make the most of it. even when we all complain about that bitch teacher or dread that assessment block coming, i think its important to take each moment as an opportunity - or look back in hindsight to reflect and move on when things get really shitty and stressful. i can only speak from my own experiences, and my own journey of self-love and growth, and i try and choose to accept each day as what it is. although i cant fucking wait for the end of the year to come (japan, i miss you) i think it would be a huuuuge waste to let this time go now, expecting to be able to live it up later. high school can be shitty, especially year 12, but i think i love it now. of course at the end of the year i will be fucking livinggg for those 3 months travelling alone in japan (!!), but the best best thing i can do right now is to make the most of now. i want to do lots of things that i love and share those things with the people that i love, but right now i also want to push through the shit storm that is hsc and expand my beautiful nerdy brain as much as i can. learning and nurturing and being around the beautiful classmates that i have, i feel happy as a year 12 student (except for when i do jack shit even when i have considerable amounts of time, but im working on that too).
that was probably very very messy and repetitive but im not going to apologise bc i tried my best to write down what i have been thinking about and internalising for a while now. i think this post is more a reminder for myself than anyone else, and writing about myself feels quite selfish, but thank you for reading if you have got this far. i want to start talking more and writing more, especially about things that i feel passionate about, but we will see... i don't think i will retype this rn in japanese, but maybe (and hopefully) i will when i find the time soon. with only about 3 months until graduation, idk im realising that time is actually very very precious...
if anyone was wondering, photos were shot on an olympus trip 35 sporadically between february and now